I feel very weak in the morning. I smelled the trees near my car when living my house. The smells are definitely clear and are getting better every day.
I can smell food from far away. It was too cold at the store again, so I sit outside on the sun. This was truly a great experience to sit and feel the sun’s warmth all over my body.
Later I felt hunger and weakness at the same time. I thought to break fasting and just eat but then decided that if I could get this far, I can do better. If I would have to say that I mobilized my whole willpower to stay with fasting it would be to say nothing.
Here I realized that from know on I will be following my own path in life and I will leave alone all the garbage that I was feeding my body.
So, it’s being 4 days and I did not have anything, including meat. I am still alive.Let’s see where we can get this way.
Interesting thing: I have a patio and bird feeder. When I opened the door to refill the bird feeder, two butterflies landed on me: one on the shirt, the other one on the feet. I lived here three years but this is the first time when I had them landing on me. I ran in the park by myself - it is easier to cope with anger.
Salty bath and scrub helped to calm down the itching. The temperature outside was the same as yesterday but instead of being hot I felt freezing. I wore T-shirt and pajamas. I had to get the blanket to warm myself up. This was the first night where I slept like a baby. < Day 1Day 5>Day 6>Day 7>
